Into the sunset

Now, I am not infallible and have lovely moments of weakness that I like to say make me a woman of the highest order.  I like to feel desirable, irresistible, and damsel in distress worthy.

One weekend I got a little insecure and thought he was losing interest in our deal (i.e. me) and frankly feeling like this situation could turn into more. I called him later in the night and with a little liquid courage, spilled my guts and feelings all over the place – even the ones that didn’t make sense.  He talked me back to reality, explaining how he was not going to mess up a budding real relationship with a smart, beautiful woman that could actually help him in his life.  He reminded me that I’d told him no sex and though he asked all the time that that rule be taken off the table, he respected it and me and knew sex right now would not help either of us.  I was floored with his candor and honesty.  Slowly I regained my sanity (not helped by my monthly hormonal imbalance) and marveled at how someone with a reputation for being impulsive and horny could take the highroad in a situation that catered to his base character.  He was quite proud of himself and told me that part of it was due to me giving him a chance. “I can hardly believe it.” I mentioned.  “Most guys I’ve been out in my life would take advantage of me immediately.”   “And yet,” he said, “I’ve been here the whole time. You just never noticed me.”

The month flew by and we had loads of fun (though he didn’t learn much design but I did get my car pimped out).  After the month was over, I told him our contract was done and he asked what the summer looked like.  I joked that I was taking vacation and that he was definitely on the roster for next year.  We decided to play the summer as the friends we’d never taken the time to be.  He was still rebounding from his ex-girlfriend and we talked about that plenty.  Eventually, he got back with her but we still hung out periodically. 

All in all, I was well pleased with my experiment.  As I entered “vacation mode”, I came across BF#6 who has been a very pleasant addition to my summer and BF#7 who is also making the summer exciting without too much work.

Next post: What I learned…