Boys in the Yard

I'm almost afraid to say it - it's barely been a week. But since I've been in this spot before, and know things can change within a day (I am going to the Bahamas this weekend so there's no telling what I'll meet on that trip), and that men are way more fickle than women, I can say with confidence that my yard is nearly empty again.

Now, yes, I suffice it say that I'm getting that connotation wrong but this is how I use it.  "Boys in my yard" mean men I'm dealing with, have a romantic interest in, or simply give me attention.

So recently the star players have been Sound Guy (you don't know that much about him and I'll tell you why later), Tow Truck Guy (or S.L.I. - and, by the way, I'm not in love anymore), Zoo Guy (S.A.), Thug Life, and The Scientist. 

Sound Guy and I have been at odds since day one and I sincerely believe that is the nature of our relationship. I hate him and he hates me.  We just like the electricity we generate when we get our guns hot on each other (and that's not a pun).  He dissed me in the worst way several weeks ago (I may have written about it - I can't remember) and since then, I have naturally avoided him. I've had other things to keep me occupied.  Anyways, I've come across him twice (while walking down the street) since I lost our last match and he's still waving his retarded victory flag - smiling big and waving like he didn't do anything wrong.  Actually like he did do something wrong and he just got away with it.  In my mind, we're like two anime cartoons and he's sitting on top of the mountain with rays of win streaming out from behind him and I'm in the valley, trembling with revenge...Like I said, it's the nature of our relationship.

Tow Truck Guy (S.L.I.) has made it safely to the Friend Zone and lives peacefully among the meaningful guy friends that have built a wonderful village there.  He is there when I need a moral and mental boost, tells me I'm pretty, sounds like everything he says is a fact, and thinks I'm wonderful.  He doesn't hang around much, we're down to talking every few days, and I even feel like I'm working at the friendship too (he'd skipped lunch the other day while working and got swamped with work. I'd cooked dinner and told him to swing by and I'd bring him some.  He did and thanked me immensely for saving his life.  He just drove by, picked up a tupperware of food, and drove off - loved it!)

Zoo Guy has disappeared but I'm not even phased.  He was having a hard time keeping his dates and commitments - I even asked him if this whole part of his life was a bad time to get to know him.  He insisted that everything was as good as it was going to be for the moment but that he was going through a very big transition with his life.  He'd just turned 30 (and I'm saying this from experience) and was trying to figure out if his career was worth pursuing after a very big setback, if he was the kind of man he wanted to be, you know, life stuff...so it's no real surprise he's disappeared. I'm sure he'll be back when he wants some eye candy on his arm for a cool festival or event he has to go to.

Thug Life and I have called it.  I called it actually.  It took a lot of courage to do so and it sort of surprised me that it did.  Since he texts me everyday, nearly all day, I had to tell him to actually stop.  That I did not want him contacting me anymore.  I must've sounded serious enough because he apologized and I haven't heard from him in two days. I was glad I'd put my foot down finally and ended such a dead end situation anyway but truthfully, as soon as I did it, I had a small panic attack and felt extremely sad.  I felt the need to eat cake or macaroni and cheese.  I didn't understand why I was having this feeling until I talked to a friend who mentioned that having someone call you every day and tell you how sexy you are and want you - well, it's something you want to happen. When it stops, even if it's from someone you don't want it from, it's disappointing in a way.  I had a whole rant about not having enough love from a male growing up, but her explanation seemed much simpler and made more sense.

The Scientist...hmmm.  Not even sure if I mentioned him but in truth, I haven't been able to categorize him yet.  The name I've tagged him with doesn't even fit because I haven't really explored what he's all about.  I do know I'm on the fence about him. He's not aggressive in any way and I'm not used to not being a ninja in a relationship. I was a little disappointed at our first real meeting and I have a feeling it may be a trend, but for now, he's just hanging around the gate - not sure if he's in the yard or not. It's different and I'll keep you posted...

So now that the recap is done, I have this to say.  I'm glad my yard is empty.  I was getting bored anyway. There has to more to this life than running around hoping for a man to decide who he is and if he wants to share a life with you.  Not that I won't revisit the situation (I may have juicy stories in just a few days).  I am a woman and my programming dictates that I desire to be mated and loved and cherished by the only other attractive and logical species on earth - a man.  But, I am a person first and I can actually do a whole lot with that - and make myself better for myself.  Good thing I'm into that too...