And the Beat Goes ON...

Ok, back to the grind.  I'm promoting my first romance novel (IKR? Bleh! https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/145171 ) and it is more exhausting than I imagined but worth it.  People love LOVE...I love the initial high of love but not the clean up...Anyway, since whoever is watching is the only person that hears me talk in my own private padded room of blog, I can say what I really feel. Yeah!!!

A couple of things, I guess: Here we go...

1) Evil Villian of the Past got to me this past weekend and I'm reeling from the attack.  He said all the right things but we're no more BFFs than we were a month ago.  I don't know what to say or how to act.  My cougar tendencies are trying to come out like the Hulk and make it all nice and neat.  I just want to tell him: "Yeah, thanks for the nice evening.  It was cool hanging out with you but you don't really have to talk to me anymore."  I don't know if that's the right thing either.  I haven't felt this undecided since 2 for 1 day at Gigi's Cupcakes...

2) I had to be a social butterfly for 2 weeks straight and it exhausted me so I escaped for the weekend to tour around Florida and it was awesome.  I hung out with my Mom (who is her own reality show so that was really fun) and visited for a full day with an old friend and his family.  He is still awesome and somehow managed to find an equally awesome woman to mate and share his life with.  I love, love, love their kid and had a great time.  Finally, hit up Jacksonville and picked up a co-worker/college roomie on the way home - good times had by all (though I wanted to punch her gay-husband in the face but I feel better now).

3) I am having a hard time with my emotional balancing as of late.  True, I've had a few ringers thrown at me (the elbow rubbing and the constant grinning show face to promote my book and have people do things for me is sucking the life out of my soul, the breast cancer checkup this past Monday which turned out good - still benign!, taking over my Mom's bills when she thinks like a Kardashian = stress, getting physically close to an old school mate who still (! - 10 years later) has a crush on me - how do I NOT feel like a prize after hanging out?) but I am not completely off course like I would've been in the past.  I just know my feelings are on my sleeve this week (I was bawling at my WW meeting - WTH?) So, I'm trying to make a concerted effort to avoid the Bad Boys of Audra's World (newbie Captain Crush and one of the last 2 winter BF's) because in this state I do nothing but make bad decisions...help!

4) Meeting cool people though.  I've met a fellow blogger www.maggielea.blogspot.com/Cached who lives in my complex and I'm really excited about her blog and will be following religiously...I've met several writers at my job and we've decided to make a writer's club of sorts since we're all there 8+ hours a day...Fado's in Atlanta is becoming my (very expensive) new hangout but I have to admit they bring the soul of Ireland to Atlanta - friendly folks and they make you feel like you're supposed to be there...

5) Went out with a 52 year old 2 weeks ago and I've set a new bar - NOONE OVER 35!  That is a whole other story since this post is getting too long for me to edit without losing interest.

So that's it ya'll  - I'm back on the horse and all 2 of you should be hearing a lot more from me lately (if there are that many :-)